It's crazy to think I'm already 6 weeks! Twins usually come early so I could be having them in just 30 weeks from now. What?! I have been searching everywhere to buy or make a chalkboard and I have had zero luck. It's all I wanted for my birthday, so I'm not giving up. Yes, I want to follow the popular chalkboard pregnancy updates...they're cute ok?! Until I find/make one I just have this:
How far along? 6 Weeks
Baby is the size of a: They're the size of peas with hearts the size of a poppy seed!
Total weight gain: I don't know...I need to buy a scale!
Maternity clothes? No.
Stretch marks? No.
Sleep: I toss and turn all night and I'm so tired when I wake up.
Exercise: We go for a walk every now and then. I definitely need to step it up, but I just haven't been feeling well enough to do anything moderate.
Miss Anything: I miss not being nauseous.
Food cravings: Lasagna, pizza, and soup.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Vegetables, carrots, eggs, avocados, almond butter, oatmeal, salad, pretty much everything I used to eat regularly.
Labor Signs: No.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy with a side of tired.
Looking forward to: Our ultrasound next week...can't wait to see those heartbeats.
This week I've felt the worst so far. I think I'm doing great compared to some of the other early pregnancy symptoms I've heard women experience though. I feel constantly nauseated unless I'm chewing food. The worst part is nothing is coming out of me and that makes me the most miserable. My body doesn't even know how to throw up. BLAH. Really, I can't and shouldn't complain, but I'm pregnant so I do what I want ;)
I have to add, when I found out we were pregnant with twins I was freaked out. I looked at all these bellies I found online of women before they went into labor and they were huge. How is my tiny little body going to handle two even tinier little bodies? I've pretty much decided I will look like a blimp and my last few weeks of pregnancy my social life will be me hiding at home hanging out with Hulu. I couldn't stop thinking about the stretch marks and the doughy post-pregnancy tummy. I was scared and even though I knew twins were possible, it wasn't in my "plan". It took a little while but I can now say the shock is over. Plus wouldn't it be better to carry two in just 9 months verses the 18 months it would take to carry them separately? I am SO excited this is actually happening. I can't wait to see my children grow up together and have that special twin bond no one else can experience. I'm excited for the giggles and playing. Of course there's things I'm not looking forward to (diapers, the expenses, non-stop nursing for two...), but why focus on that?
On Monday I had a day of denial: How am I going to do this? Can I do this? I'm not going to be good enough...
On Tuesday I had a day of complete excitement: I couldn't stop thinking about twins and how much fun it will be. Bring on the crazy! I daydreamed what life would be like.
Today, Wednesday, I have been scared out of my mind: I blame it on Google. I read stories of women that had vanishing twin syndrome even up to 13 weeks. Will I ever feel like my babies are "safe"? Everyday I will worry one will be lost, but everyday I will be praying they are both healthy and growing. Now that I've truly accepted the fact I'm having twins I want them more than ever.