Tuesday, September 16, 2014

"When I Grow Up"

It's 6 am and I should be asleep, but I can't. Ever lie awake for hours unable to turn your brain off? That's what is happening to me right now. I'm a combination of sad and upset, and I just can't stop thinking about it.

The twins are fine, in fact they've been giving me love kicks all night. I just don't feel fine. I learned yesterday how underpaid I am, and how my job has been taking advantage of me. I feel like I've been cheated. I've done a lot for my job. I've helped build and grow a program from the ground up. No one was there to train me, yet now I'm training a mini me that is making thousands upon thousands more than me. She has the same job description, and no related experience. Yet, I'm not even making close to what she is. It makes no sense.

This couldn't be better timing. For months I've been debating on when I should quit my job. This was the last straw and I'm happy to say I'll be putting in my two weeks notice on Monday.

So why am I writing this (besides to vent)? Ever since college I've known that the workplace isn't for me. It's not that I'm lazy, I'm a very hard and successful worker. But I've known for years that all I want to be "when I grow up" is the best wife and mother I can be.

I love being a wife. I love taking care of my husband, packing his lunches, making him dinner, doing his laundry (okay, that one is a lie), and helping him in any way I can. After we were married I knew motherhood could be right around the corner, the next thing I wanted to be more than anything.

Well it wasn't exactly around the corner. It was more like up a long steep hill. Thoughts of never being a mother haunted me. But look at us now...lots of love and prayer, a dash of science, and a big scoop of miracle have made us soon-to-be parents to our precious twins.

I guess the point I'm trying to get at is despite the fact I've been miserable at my job and recently found out I've been used and abused, it doesn't really matter. Just a few more weeks and I've got my dream job. Yes, I actually want a career path in spit-up and tantrums. Payment in hugs and smiles from my children will be worth more than any paycheck.

I am so thankful that I get to be a mom. I am so thankful that I have the honor of being my husband's wife. I'm thankful that he is such a hard worker and that his efforts will allow me to stay at home with our kids. I'm even thankful for my lousy job...it's at least helped the time fly by so I'm that much closer to holding my babies.

I love you baby A and baby B. I can't wait to be your momma. 

Thursday, September 11, 2014

30 Weeks

So remember how I've been so excited for pumpkin season? Well I tried a pumpkin recipe last night that looked really good and it was awful! I still feel sick and have no appetite because of it. Now when I see a pumpkin recipe on Pinterest it makes my stomach churn. I'm so sad :(

I saw my doctor on Monday and had the honor of taking a third glucose test. I don't know how people can enjoy the glucose drink...no thank you! Since gestational diabetes occurs more in pregnancies with multiples, they have to check you more often. And often times you fail the one hour like I did last time. I'm just praying that by some miracle I passed! A fellow blogger friend and expecting twin mama (check out her fun site, The Word Of A Nerd) told me her doctor said she could eat 28 jellybeans or 3 pancakes with syrup instead of drinking the glucose drink. How cool is that? If you're going to consume all of those sugary calories might as well enjoy it right? 

(Update: I got the call from my doctor...I FAILED again! I have to do the 3-hour next week. Boooooo.)

The twins are great. Baby boy had the hiccups when we checked his heartbeat so that was cute. They are definitely starting to take over. Pain in the ribs and back, as well as lots of pelvic pressure is the norm these days. I hope I'm not offending anyone by saying this, but it literally feels like someone karate-chopped my vagina. 


My doctor said I'm about 20% effaced. Trying to explain how the cervix works to Chris was entertaining. He's still confused. Female anatomy frightens him. 

And finally after 16 days of being sick with a cold/flu thing I am better! My babies might not recognize me by my voice but they definitely will by my cough. Pregnancy tip: Don't get sick! It takes forever to recover.

Lastly, I had a "virtual" baby shower with some wonderful friends in Washington last week. My mom was with them in person and I was on FaceTime. I really wished I could have been there. I miss everyone so much! I was stunned by everyone's kindness and generosity. I'm hoping at some point I can take a trip to Washington with the twins so everyone there can meet them!

30 Weeks

How far along? 30 Weeks 2 Days 
Babies are the size of: Cantaloupes.    
Total weight gain: 11lbs.  
Maternity clothes?  Most of the time. I've got the comfiest maternity yoga pants :) 
Stretch marks? Still zero...let's keep it that way! 
Sleep: Ugh.  
Exercise: Yes, still aiming for 5 days a week.  
Miss Anything: An unsquished bladder. 
Movement: Oh yes, we've starting playing games.  
Food cravings: None. I'm so weird.  
Anything making you queasy or sick: See note about pumpkin above. 
Labor Signs: Baxton hicks and 20% effaced.  
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy-tired.    
Looking forward to: The change in seasons. Fall is my favorite.

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

28 Weeks

Okay, so this post is a lie. Not really, the timing is just off. I'm actually 29 weeks but I have this thing with even numbers and I wanted to stay consistent. 

I didn't do this last week due to a horrible cold/flu thing I caught at work. Getting sick is seriously the worst when you're pregnant because you cannot take any of the typical cold/flu medicines. All I could do is rest and drink herbal tea. I'm still sick a week later and I'm coughing up a lung every 10 minutes, but I at least have most of my energy back and have been sleeping a little better.  

I've always heard the third trimester is the worst. You're huge and uncomfortable among other weird bodily happenings. I swear my body knew to the exact day when the third trimester started because suddenly I was weak, tired, SICK, and just overall miserable. It was like the clock struck midnight and my body just knew.

Okay so I'm exaggerating a little. Despite being sick I still feel like I'm doing great pregnancy wise. Although I do have to pee 20,000 times a day. Toilet paper companies must love pregnant people.

In other news, I had a doctor's appointment last week and the twins are still doing great and growing strong. My belly was measuring at 32 weeks for a singleton pregnancy. My doctor said most of the twins she delivers arrive at 35 weeks...that would be October 14th for me...holy moly! She didn't seem concerned but she said I might be slightly effacing. My appointment at the specialist this week will be able to check on that better. They can actually measure your cervix with their fancy ultrasound (instead of the lovely alternative). 

Other then that Chris and I spent a wonderful labor day weekend house sitting for my mom. It was fun imagining it was our own home. We are so excited to own a home someday but that will still be years down the road since Chris is going to go to grad school. Our weekend included homemade pizza, walking the dog, reading, taking a bubble bath, and just simply hanging out with my man. It was a very much needed relaxing weekend. Now it's back to another busy month of work, Chris studying for the GMAT, prepping for babies, and enjoying our time together before the twins take over our world.

We've been missing Hawaii a lot lately so I decided to go with a little Hawaiian theme this time. 

28 Weeks 

How far along? Ok...so I'm actually 29 weeks in this picture. Keep it hush hush ;)   
Babies are the size of: Hawaiian pineapples!   
Total weight gain: Still 10lbs. 
Maternity clothes?  Sometimes.  
Stretch marks?  None! 
Sleep: Very uncomfortable but I'm getting used to it. Now that it's getting cooler out Chris and I cuddle at night which actually helps me sleep.  
Exercise: Nothing last week because I was sick, but I'm getting back into it!
Miss Anything: Being able to sleep through the night without getting up to pee.  
Movement: All the time...twice the babies twice the movement!  
Food cravings: No cravings. Still no increase in appetite.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope. 
Labor Signs: Lots of braxton hicks. I actually think it feels pretty cool.  
Happy or Moody most of the time: Mix of both since being sick didn't put me in the best mood.  
Looking forward to: The weekend. I just don't want to work!

Monday, August 25, 2014

Mickey & Minnie Baby Shower

Last Saturday my wonderful friend Ashley threw me the cutest little Mickey & Minnie baby shower! 

We are big Disney fans so this was such a fun theme. I definitely can't wait for our twins to meet Mickey and Minnie one day! It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside knowing we have so many wonderful people that care about us and our twins. I'm really excited about the car seat they got us as a group gift. It made me finally decide on what kind of car seats to get since I've had the hardest time choosing which ones to get. The Graco SnugRide Click Connect 35 won! 



Also, instead of bringing a card everyone brought a book. We have a great start to our collection! I owe a HUGE thanks to Ashley. The shower was so fun! 

Thursday, August 14, 2014

26 Weeks

And time continues to fly...

I had another appointment last week with my regular doctor. We didn't do an ultrasound since I had just had one with the specialists days before. Everything is still going great! My favorite thing to hear from my doctors is "Just keep doing whatever it is you're doing!" I worry a lot, so I'm always happy to hear that I'm doing the right things. 

A highlight of the past 2 weeks was my friend's one year old son getting upset at me because he thought there was a ball under my shirt that I wouldn't give him. It was priceless! 

26 Weeks!

How far along? 26 Weeks and 2 Days
Babies are the size of: Butternut Squash - yum!
Total weight gain: 10lbs
Maternity clothes?  Yes and no. None of the clothes I'm wearing in this picture are maternity. 
Stretch marks?  Zero thus far. 
Sleep: My body is just training me for newborns! Usually I lie awake for hours, switch back and forth between the bed and couch, and then when all else fails I eat a bowl of cereal. 
Exercise: Always...it's my secret weapon to an easy pregnancy. 
Miss Anything: Sleeping on my stomach. 
Movement: Yes, especially at night! 
Food cravings: No cravings, but I'm counting down the days until pumpkin season! 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing lately.
Labor Signs: I've been having braxton hicks the last few weeks, but didn't realize that's what they were! It's such a weird feeling. 
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy :)
Looking forward to: My baby shower next weekend woohoo!